“We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.”
― Joseph Campbell
I have this quote posted on my office door at work and I find that in life I come back to it again and again. It resonates. I could simply write that it’s been a hectic week but that wouldn’t do justice.
It isn’t a long story really. My fella had burst pipes which led to some mold. He has a 13-year-old cat that has only lived in one house. To clean the mold, living things must leave. Well, they didn’t say that. They said, “It will be fine”. But we’re smart people and if you can’t drink it safely, we don’t want it near our loved ones. My late best friend was a 13 year old Doberman. From where I sit, I can look up to his urn of ashes. He came to me as a surprise too. I’m trying to remember that. I would have moved him out too. So they moved into my house that is already full. They were supposed to come in December, a nice transition. It didn’t work that way. Along with tangible stuff, I have baggage from failed marriages (that’s right, a plural form) and I have loved every minute of living alone. I’m the kind of girl who can happily dine in a restaurant with a book. I can walk through a crowd and feel the energy but come home and be alone… never lonely. Change has always been scary for me. It’s scary and fast, but not really because we've been together for five years. Our styles don't really mesh but it’s all just stuff! I know that. I have made a garden. I have made a life. All the wedding/marriage language about two halves becoming whole makes me want to vomit. I read The Missing Piece by Shel Silverstein. I’m already PacMan whole y’all! But this is all society and my fella IS amazing. This has certainly been a week of figuring out everything!
But the flowers are blooming in my backyard... I've cut the grass (what is with the mosquitoes this year! Geez! 6 bites within minutes!) and my fella brought home the Martha Stewart Living issue which has the Halloween issue inside. I have much to do to organize and catch up on. I suppose to should get with it but I really want to thumb through some Halloween.