Thursday, March 12, 2015

... very different Clouds...





The Cloud
by Percy Bysshe Shelley

  I bring fresh showers for the thirsting flowers,
         From the seas and the streams;
I bear light shade for the leaves when laid
         In their noonday dreams.
From my wings are shaken the dews that waken
         The sweet buds every one,
When rocked to rest on their mother's breast,
         As she dances about the sun.
I wield the flail of the lashing hail,
         And whiten the green plains under,
And then again I dissolve it in rain,
         And laugh as I pass in thunder.

   I sift the snow on the mountains below,
         And their great pines groan aghast;
And all the night 'tis my pillow white,
         While I sleep in the arms of the blast.
Sublime on the towers of my skiey bowers,
         Lightning my pilot sits;
In a cavern under is fettered the thunder,
         It struggles and howls at fits;
Over earth and ocean, with gentle motion,
         This pilot is guiding me,
Lured by the love of the genii that move
         In the depths of the purple sea;
Over the rills, and the crags, and the hills,
         Over the lakes and the plains,
Wherever he dream, under mountain or stream,
         The Spirit he loves remains;
And I all the while bask in Heaven's blue smile,
         Whilst he is dissolving in rains.

   The sanguine Sunrise, with his meteor eyes,
         And his burning plumes outspread,
Leaps on the back of my sailing rack,
         When the morning star shines dead;
As on the jag of a mountain crag,
         Which an earthquake rocks and swings,
An eagle alit one moment may sit
         In the light of its golden wings.
And when Sunset may breathe, from the lit sea beneath,
         Its ardours of rest and of love,
And the crimson pall of eve may fall
         From the depth of Heaven above,
With wings folded I rest, on mine aëry nest,
         As still as a brooding dove.

   That orbèd maiden with white fire laden,
         Whom mortals call the Moon,
Glides glimmering o'er my fleece-like floor,
         By the midnight breezes strewn;
And wherever the beat of her unseen feet,
         Which only the angels hear,
May have broken the woof of my tent's thin roof,
         The stars peep behind her and peer;
And I laugh to see them whirl and flee,
         Like a swarm of golden bees,
When I widen the rent in my wind-built tent,
         Till calm the rivers, lakes, and seas,
Like strips of the sky fallen through me on high,
         Are each paved with the moon and these.

   I bind the Sun's throne with a burning zone,
         And the Moon's with a girdle of pearl;
The volcanoes are dim, and the stars reel and swim,
         When the whirlwinds my banner unfurl.
From cape to cape, with a bridge-like shape,
         Over a torrent sea,
Sunbeam-proof, I hang like a roof,
         The mountains its columns be.
The triumphal arch through which I march
         With hurricane, fire, and snow,
When the Powers of the air are chained to my chair,
         Is the million-coloured bow;
The sphere-fire above its soft colours wove,
         While the moist Earth was laughing below.

   I am the daughter of Earth and Water,
         And the nursling of the Sky;
I pass through the pores of the ocean and shores;
         I change, but I cannot die.
For after the rain when with never a stain
         The pavilion of Heaven is bare,
And the winds and sunbeams with their convex gleams
         Build up the blue dome of air,
I silently laugh at my own cenotaph,
         And out of the caverns of rain,
Like a child from the womb, like a ghost from the tomb,
         I arise and unbuild it again.



Thursday, March 5, 2015

... wintering and saying No...

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. 
~ Anthony J. D'Angelo
That isn't snow but pellets of ice!
While Washington DC is getting hammered with snow, we have ice pellets here in Ashland, VA. 

I’ve been complaining about the weather a great deal lately because, darn it, it is March in Virginia and that means open-toe shoes and digging in the dirt. Unfortunately, Mother Nature has a different plan which always leads me to Joseph Campbell’s, “We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” 

While slightly dramatic considering this is just a snow/ ice pellet fall, I have been trying to live in the now and appreciate what I do have (and perhaps appreciate that we do not have what Boston has :-/ ). Now there are big flakes falling outside my window but I am mostly warm inside (I could put on some socks). I have food and supplies. I have plenty of works… better yet, I have books! I could even do my nails. I have many choices.

A more pleasant view from my office window earlier this week.
Of course, this transfers to life. Lately I’ve felt that I’ve been living under a winter cloud. This snow day has brought a great deal of reflection (read that as a ray of sunshine) because I woke to texts from a friend/colleague. We’re both experiencing the crazy busy overworked feelings but after reading a few articles and a good texting chat, I think we’re both seeing that sometimes we take on too much because heck, we’re curious people who enjoy the opportunities that are presented to us. We’re also learning the value of saying No in a positive way. Saying No and removing some of our responsibilities doesn’t make us less productive academics; it makes us healthy. We must have balance… and at least in this region, we do have seasons. In life that means that sometimes we are going to overextend. But then, it also means that we're going to pull ourselves out of some situations so that we can stop doing and actually BE!

So for now, I'm going to go grab a book, get under my Jack Skellington snuggie and appreciate the fact that I don't drive a snowplow for a living.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

...hopeless bulbs and perspective...



"Where flowers bloom so does hope"  ~Lady Bird Johnson
((hmph!))

Eeek! It’s been one of those weeks… I simply had too much on my plate to write a thoughtful post. I have the habit of what my fella calls “piling”. I overextend myself and underestimate the time tasks will take. I’ve gotten much accomplished today even though I’m not feeling well. The sleet and freezing rain outside my window isn’t helping. BOO! Go away Winter!

I had an awful work week but I have no intentions of ranting about it here. Long story short… I made some risky health decisions putting work before Me. This led to an epiphany and some changes which never makes the masses happy. In the end, I’m still anxious but optimistic about some changes.

So here’s the metaphor… I have been trying to force bulbs since January. The growth doesn’t look much different now than a month ago.  The Snowdrops and Black Queen of the Night tulips sprouted but there haven’t been any blooms. This is the first time I’ve ordered bulbs via Etsy. I’m not exactly sure what I did wrong but one of the tulips (far left) is already starting to shrivel and die. I see these bulbs in my bathroom—they’re green. I nurture them as much as I can but at some point I have to realize that that is all they are going to do. Just like some of the tasks we’re sometimes given at work. We make choices. We do our best. Even when we’re doing everything we can, sometimes things don’t grow. I can only control myself; sometimes you just have to buy yourself some supermarket flowers and call it a day.

Yesterday was my 41st birthday. This girl ain’t shy about her age! Being 41 beats the alternative… and that’s often where I go. There are so many friends who didn’t make it; who just couldn’t live long enough; who simply didn’t bloom. I lift my glass to them and I try my best to live each and every day to the fullest.


Here’s a little blurry outfit post (y’all know I am never going to do an outfit post right… sigh :p ). My fella and I went out to dinner last night and this is what I looked like.