This morning I have been catching up on reading blogs.
Months ago, my blog reader format changed so there is an extra step for me to
see posts. I have to admit that I have gotten a bit behind especially since it
has been nearly impossible for me to read posts from a mobile device.
Since my last post, I have returned to work at least
in the form of meetings. My first day back was last Monday and my focus was on
setting up my office. After twenty-some years, our work offices had their
carpet replaced. It makes a world of difference.
Years ago, I was upgraded to
an office with a window. I did not care what view I had as long as there was
natural light. I painted my office after moving into that office because it had
three shades of gray paint on the walls. The previous painters painted around
furniture and over time the furniture was moved. It was horribly dreary to look
at such ugly walls. The paint color I selected was a nice shade of mauve in the
store. In the actual office, it appears more princess-purple; but, I like
purple so I enjoy it.
I replaced my old lunch bag with a new bat version
that is made from recycled plastic bottles. On the first day I brought my
lunch, I even cut my sandwiches into coffin shapes. I have been trying to
refocus my efforts on eating tasty and healthful meals.
And, after the landscapers chopped down my day lilies
and hibiscus over a month ago, I have replanted some day lilies (Little
Grapette and Rosy Returns) and spotted buds on the hibiscus this morning. They
are nowhere the size they usually are this time of year but at least I get to
see them resurrect once again before 2018.
Of course, yesterday was the solar eclipse. I worked
from home in the morning and then spent the afternoon with my fella staring at
the sun. With mere minutes before our peak time (86% coverage in my area), the
clouds rolled in and ended our hour wait. Let me be clear about how perfectly
okay I am that this happened. It was hot and humid as hell yesterday so cloud
coverage made sitting outdoors a bit more enjoyable; and we were able to see
most of the event together in the middle of a workday. We recognized our
privilege of being able to do that.
The eclipse needed to be a turning point for me. Last
week, a dear former student passed away. To my knowledge, this is the first
death that I have experienced of any of my students. He was a special one and
we had just spoken days before. It was the most tragic and awful of possible
tragic and awful events, and I have tried to come to terms with it as best I
can. His death cast a shadow over the summer and my return to work.
My good friend The Curious Professor Z helped me
reflect on the day. My fella and I had come up with solar-eclipse-watching
rituals but I needed a personal one and a time to reflect so I asked her for
her thoughts. Regarding eclipse day, she writes, “It's a special day because
the day turns into night and then back into day. And it's a New Moon, new
beginnings. What do you want to bring out of the darkness into the light? Once
you answer that you can write your own [ritual]” which is exactly what I did.
There are several things that I want to shed light on.
I journaled, sat and listened, journaled some more. This morning I am thinking
about shadows and how our English language has so many idioms for darkness and
shade, and how they are typically negative. Many of us take solace in the
shadows. Because of the medication that I take, I burn within five minutes so
most of my time outside is under some kind of umbrella.
There is protection in
the darkness just as there is growth in the light. Without going into too many
details, it always returns to balance- the Yin and the Yang, the push and the
pull, the here and the there.
Cut down perennials return; old bottles become cute
lunch bags; the sun leaves and returns; a life ends and its meaning transforms.
The cycle continues.
And, because I never take myself too seriously, at the peak of the eclipse, I decided it would be funny to don my vampire fangs when my fella looked over at me.
Awww ... I'm glad that I helped you, my friend. :) Love and hugs!
ReplyDeleteI love the bat bag and coffin sandwich! The eclipse ritual sounds like a great idea!
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